Thursday, March 31, 2011 Y 12:35 PM
THOUGHTS: Sometimes, good things fall apart so that better things can fall together -- Marilyn MonroeI find it simply amazing how before it felt like I was let down time and time again. Right when I thought my troubles were over, I was proven wrong. Yet, without those things going wrong, things wouldn't be so right now. So, I tell you, when things seem so out of control and you feel helpless, just let the rain pass on its own. But that isn't to say that you can simply sit back and everything will be okay. Take the opportunities you're given, put all you have into it and if it fails, put your heart into the next opportunity and eventually all those failed opportunities will accumulate to one amazing opportunity.
Thursday, March 17, 2011 Y 1:32 PM
THOUGHT: My brain knows that you love me, but why does my heart feel so sad?I feel like we're slipping. I know that I've pulled away, but that's because I want to assert my independence and I don't want to be swayed by every little thing. I text less, I tell you I love you and I miss you less and instead I pile up. But that's only because I don't want to have to wait for your reply and I don't want that feeling where it feelings like you're busy and you merely typed the quickest reply you could think of. I want to feel like you actually care about what I say. I don't want to feel like I'm talking to a wall. I don't tell you I miss you because I want you to tell me you miss me because honestly, I don't know if you do. I want to be able to look at you and be able to think "yea he loves me" I want to know that he'd die without me.
AH I DON'T KNOW. We're making progress with his friends though. It's getting .. easier I think. It's so easy for him though. He doesn't have to make any sacrifices. I don't even ask him to translate. I just pretend like I understand what's going on .. bjaeuiot4yhdn bkjthr;wyao;weihlnbgfiupsyh[JJBGH'[0AJKJKH'[rm ,bnsp;iaoldm., vmfnbjtaeo'pwrieoavjkxdmf UISEHTAIWO;EKDNMJFKDSA mjldikfanmc hjbao;jmfhjdlvsb8iohraebwfldshjuafvndbuiadhfiusdajfiewaqgnrieskzmadsa
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