MindReader

Sunday, February 28, 2010 Y 11:46 PM

THOUGHT: Sometimes, you just have to go through the pain, it's just something that has to happen.
You said that if it’s meant to be it’ll happen but I say that even if it’s meant to be you gotta take the leap, make the move. You said that we’re an example of “if its meant to be it’ll happen” but if I never stepped out of my comfort zone, if I never took the risk, Sam and I would never be where we are today. Playing it safe means staying inside your box but outside of your box, there’s a whole world to discover. It’s okay to be sure, to be prepared like a backpacker about to travel Europe but don’t ever assume the world is waiting for you. Find the thing that makes you happiest and chase it don’t ever let it go. Don’t give it the chance to slip away.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010 Y 8:20 PM

THOUGHT: Sam's not gonna like this ...
I hate you .. not with a passion or anything .. I just .. don't like you.
I hate your morals and your blinded stubbornness.
I hate your traditions and your close-mindedness.
I hate you hiding behind your faith.
I hate you for hurting him.
I hate you for making both our lives difficult.
I hate you for never giving me a chance.
I hate you for holding him from me.
I hate the expectations you have.
I hate you for not being able to trust him.
I just really really don't like you right now, and I regret the fact that we're going to have to be family. One day you're gonna realize the mistake you're making right now and the mistake you've been making the whole time and he's going to be happy that you're proud and that he's finally gained your approval but I don't think that's going to be enough for me ...
I wonder .. if an egg hitting a wall is very loud .. what about a window ..

Thursday, February 4, 2010 Y 10:16 PM

THOUGHT: The Golden Mean is the middle between extremes, excess and deficiency. Too much of anything and too little of anything is disastrous whereas a harmony between the two is perfect.

I'll move the world for you, but I won't take your bullshit.
I'll let you take your anger out on me, but I won't let you be inexplicably angry with me.
I'll always love you, but I can still hate you for hurting me.
I'll always think of you as the best, as my only one, but I have doubts about being your only one.
All this ^ I know applies vice versa.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that we both know how it is. We're not blinded by love to ignore when we're being hurt or ignore our own unhappiness for the sake of the opposite sex. I think this is the best way to maintain a happy relationship. If we can both be happy while addressing both our wants and needs doesn't that mean we're a perfect couple. Neither one has to sacrifice him/herself for the other. Also, in doing this, we're being honest with each other and that is key to a successful relationship and .. I think we've been pretty successful ^^

BTW .. I think I'm going through this weird cute phase where I'm like almost trying to suck up to you or I want you to like everything I do. It's a little weird and I'm scared I'm getting clingy ><. I don't want to be clingy but I just want to spend every second with you and I want you to like spending every second with you so I feel like I have to be extra lovable or extra cute or something even though I know that's stupid. Ah .. the dilemma.