Monday, September 21, 2009 Y 9:55 PM
THOUGHT: When morals contradict my personality.I feel like the place is draining my soul. It was this year when everything became defined and the people I did want to talk to and the people I didn't want to talk to actually became an issue. My boyfriend, he's friends with almost everyone in our grade. well friends with everyone that talks x ). But, this creates an issue for me because there are many people I'd rather not talk to. There really wouldn't be a problem because I could easily just not talk to them but, I actually want to make friends and the crowds are so interlaced I can't exactly pick and choose my friends. That's not even the irony of it. The irony is, is that I could easily make friends with everyone except for maybe one person that I've vocalized my distaste for. Everyone else doesn't actually physically know I don't like them. They just know I don't make an effort to talk to them or even smile at them. I can't stoop to such a level as to pretend I actually like them simply because I want to make friends. I can't do that. That goes against everything I believe in.
I honestly cannot wait until university. It'll be like turning over a new leaf. A whole new social circle, countless opportunities and a fresh image. Also there will only be about a handful of people I'll have to keep in touch with instead of the twenty thousand if I actually was friends with everyone.
