Friday, August 7, 2009 Y 3:14 PM
THOUGHT: Everyone's got 2 security blankets, a mental one and a physical one. It's really weird going out without make-up. It's not that I feel weird, it's quite the opposite actually. I can go out without make-up and I'll be okay with it. I don't know when this changed, but I know it has because I more than frequently go out with either none or almost no make-up on. For me, my make-up has always been a security blanket. If I didn't put it on, I would feel as if I'm exposed to the world, insecure. Now, I don't care anymore and that's different for me. I think it started with work. Since I'm really not a morning person, I more often than not wake up later than I planned to and in my haste to catch my bus, I forget to put my make-up on. At first, I hated this fact and I'd go off to Sephora and put eyeliner on the first chance I got. Slowly, I started not to care thinking: "its just work, whatever". I suppose this slowly started to apply to other places of my life. When I go over to a friend's house or see my boyfriend. It's not really a big deal anymore. In the past, even though they have all seen me without make-up, I still felt the need to always put it on before seeing
anyone (except family of course). Now, surprisingly, I don't care and I'm actually really proud of myself. ♥
