THOUGHT: Life is predetermined but it is done in a way which considers every choice a person can make and your path changes as you make those choices.
I think .. I really love you. The trust and the love just vibes off your body. At first, I was skeptical at everything you said, I didn't want to just blindly trust you, I didn't want to get hurt. But when you told me what your parents said it just ... put everything in stone x ) . How can I even doubt what you say when even your parents see it.

But I want you to know that when I say I love you, I mean it. I don't like saying it like any other typical relationship where it's said simply because the couple thinks they're suppose to now that they're together. It comes from the bottom of my heart when I say it. : ) I love you, and I'm glad I found you again.

OMG ECK my blogs are so .. lovey dovey its gross x ). And yes I have been boyfriended contrary to my freedom blog. But its different this time, I'm still free as a bird I've just got someone on my mind now : ) . I love it. : )

THOUGHT: Confidence is about believing in yourself and if you don't believe in yourself, neither will the people you're trying to impress the most.
It's ironic how without confidence, the most gorgeous person in the world can look like the last person you would date. Sweetie, all I have to tell you is that the more you try to convince everyone else in who you are, the less we believe. Simply because you don't believe it yourself yet. You fit in as much as anyone else fits into our group. If anything you'd be that last person I would think didn't fit it. You've been with us longer than anyone else has and we all know who you are even when you don't. Did you know that because of the fact that you don't believe you fit in, you started acting as if you don't. Once you feel this way, you start isolating yourself and forcing us to exclude you. We don't like doing that darling and we care so much about you. Please don't think that way of yourself. Believe in yourself and in who you are, only then can we really start to appreciate you truly. ♥

THOUGHT: Mark Twain once said “I can live for two months on a good compliment.” Verbal appreciation speaks powerfully to persons whose primary Love Language is “Words of Affirmation.” Simple statements, such as, “You look great in that suit,” or “You must be the best baker in the world! I love your oatmeal cookies,” are sometimes all a person needs to hear to feel loved.
That.is.SO.true. Sometimes I just want to hear it. : )

Why is it that everything that comes out of your mouth .. is so perfect. Everything just falls into place and that scares me. I feel like something bad is going happen and you're either going to decide I'm really not who you thought I was .. or I'm gonna find out you're cheating on me or something. I don't know. Eva thinks that I'm just so use to the drama and the tears that I've pretty much come to expect it. That's probably really true. But at the same time I also feel like I'm blindly trusting you. It doesn't feel like we've just started talking again, I feel like I've known you for years now but I really haven't. Yet I can so easily trust you.
I'm scared.

THOUGHT: to Miss - to discover or feel the absence of
Absence. Yes, that's exactly what it is. It's a weird feeling. I don't think I've felt this way .. in a while. It wasn't like this with .. the other one, I feel like I'm fucking tripping balls xD ! Omg. I just .. can't put my finger on it, what the fuuuhhh ?

OH TO "MS. GORGEOUS"(soon to be gr 11 er) STFU, you're cheesing the world off. The only people that really have any sympathy for you .. is like your friends .. because they're your friends. In this situation .. the only person you're allowed to be cheesed with is your friends for ditching you to catch their ride. But like you know what, wouldn't you have done the same thing ? If you lived far away and you only had one ride? You would have ditched your friends too. I'm sorry but that's the truth. So just drop it.

lol I'm random right ? : )

THOUGHT: You can't find love, it finds you : ) .
I can't .. believe it . But I'm glad it happened though . I really am . It wasn't ... too much or anything , just .. kinda perfect : ) . It makes me smile . Even though the weather sucks, and I didn't get to do anything on my birthday its okay , because you were there and you make smile like there's no tomorrow . <3

SO 일래인 첸 is now seventeen !!! YAY . One more year and she's graduating ! High school was and is a rush of emotions and was an amazing experience ♥.

THOUGHT: When you cry you release hormones from your body called adrenocorticotrophic hormones (hormones related with high blood pressure, heart problems and physical conditions related to stress)
I'm so fucking angry .. it's not even funny. Not coming to YOUR class on monday is at my disadvantage ? You're fucking funny. I don't believe that you are going to mark 240 pages of work and hand it back on monday, that's a fucking joke. The 240 pages is only what we did today. Actually, you probably will mark them, but only 120 and hand them back to the other class. Why? Because there's no fucking logic in your brain. Yea, you let it "slip" that you had fun in university, well darling I think you had a bit too much fun because there's no fucking logic in anything you do. NONE OF US have gotten anything back. You're fucking teaching us shit, asking us to do work on it and then you just drop it and move on to something else. You don't teach in any fucking logical order. I'd rather you follow a lesson plan and have a boring class .. than the way the fucking class is now. I'm not about to let you screw me over. You know who's a good teacher? Ms Berry. Why? Because this is how her lessons work: Learn new concept, practise concept and then TAKE UP ANSWERS. Yes that is what she does. Why? So that we actually know what we're fucking doing is right!. Your lessons go: concept, practise, hand-in, new concept, practise, back to previous concept because you fucking forgot something, practise and that's where it ends!!! What the fuck are you doing in your spare time. WHY THE FUCK DON'T I HAVE ANY OF MY TESTS BACK ?! Don't expect me to be there on monday, I'm not putting myself through useless torture, you've gotta be joking. Fuck you for ruiuning chemistry for me .. fuck you.

THOUGHT: You don't necessarily have to get married with your soulmate, your soulmate is someone that you were just destined to meet regardless of the circumstances you may be in.
You are my soulmate. I know that now. I realized today that even though you may have shattered my heart at one point, for some reason I just couldn't be angry at you and frankly .. I blame her. But, you will always have a place in my heart and I will always care about you. The chemistry is undeniable, the energy just buzzes around us and up until now, I thought it was just because you were cute x ) . Know this: You will always be special to me because you are number one.

- See the world
- Get a two pac
- Complete my bucket list
- Grow two inches

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