Thursday, May 14, 2009 Y 12:55 PM
THOUGHT: Happiness is to love living. Embrace life with optimism.There are two things in my life that I really don't want to let go of. But letting go is inevitable and who knows when it'll return.
So my dad came back and Tuesday. The warmth that fills my house and the glow I feel inside my heart really is irreplaceable. Although the family's not complete yet, the closer we get the happier I feel. But, this glow will disappear in a couple weeks. I'll deal and I'll forget the feeling. Sometimes, I'd rather they not come back, unless they're staying. It's easier to deal that way. But I'll enjoy this now and take advantage of this feeling I have now.
Right now there's another kind of warmth in my heart. It's like a tickle and it makes me smile. Sadly, I can feel myself slipping, falling deeper but I know I can't and I won't let myself. So if I can't hold my place right now, I'll have to pull myself out. You know it, I know it and I can't commit to something that I know is going to end because I'll just be setting myself up. It's like someone going into the deep end of the pool, when they can't swim. If they let go or go any deeper they'll probably drown. They'll hold onto the place the are now to test their ability, but they know, they'll have to pull themselves out because they can't go all the way.
I'll enjoy these feelings now and when they're gone, I can atleast be happy I got to experience them and I'll grow from them. I can't hold on to them forever, so I'll let them go. Happiness is always achievable.
